Lost in Pages: A Recap of My Reading Year

I used to be a casual reader, flipping through a few non-fiction pages now and then, but I never quite committed to finishing a book cover to cover. This year, though, things took a turn. I found myself glued to literature more than ever. I kept up with my sporadic page-turning, especially enjoying the freedom to dive into a ghazal from any source. As always, my main digital reading diet comprised Wikipedia, online articles, blogs, and Reddit.

Once a dedicated daily reader of newspapers, this practice faded away after leaving Jaipur. The era of quick news bites and click-baity headlines, I couldn’t help but feel the absence of some immersive storytelling. As luck would have it, my literary journey hit a high this year. I happily knocked out over a dozen books – certainly not a massive feat by the standards of an average reader on Goodreads, but still a personal victory for me. Assisted by a trusty e-book reader, I am spared the weight of holding a book for hours and the anxiety of unfinished pages. Of course, this digital convenience comes at the expense of the woody scent of book pages and the joy of a physical book collection – a luxury my cramped room can’t afford.

In chronological order, here’s a peek into my literary escapades this year. Each book was a thoughtful choice, given my slow reading pace that spans weeks. Time always seems to be in short supply, when you can just unwind with a movie, a YouTube video, or even some shorts.

Many of my chosen readings revolve around mountains and mountaineering, serving as a placebo for enjoying such adventures vicariously. I explored a number of public libraries, with Jurong Regional Library becoming a favorite haunt, only to end up with reading materials on the same, seated in a quiet and nippy corner.

Among my favorite reads this year, James Hilton’s classic fiction, Lost Horizon, stands out, immersing me in the mystical world of Shangri-La set in Tibet. On the non-fiction front, “The Ghosts of K2: The Epic Saga of the First Ascent” by Mick Conefrey gripped me with its depiction of the struggles, courage, and adventurous spirit of early expeditionists conquering the toughest, highest, and culturally the remotest terrains of the world. In the world of poetry, Diwan-e-Ghalib has consistently been a wellspring of poetic ecstasy – a psychoactive drug hitting all the right notes. Also engaging myself digitally on Rekhta, Clubhouse, and FWP.

  1. The Scent of Death by Simon Beckett
  2. Written in Blood by Chris Carter
  3. The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides
  4. 1984 by George Orwell
  5. The Ghosts of K2: The Epic Saga of the First Ascent by Mick Conefrey
  6. Lost Horizon by James Hilton
  7. The Housemaid by Freida McFadden
  8. Verity by Colleen Hoover
  9. Everest 1922 by Mick Conefrey
  10. Into the Silence: The Great War, Mallory, and the Conquest of Everest by Wade Davis
  11. Beyond Possible by Nimsdai Purja
  12. The Reader by Bernhard Schlink
  13. On the Island by Tracey Garvis Graves
  14. The Housemaid’s Secret by Frieda McFadden
  15. Free Will by Sam Harris
  16. Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown
  17. The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka
  18. Diwan-e-Ghalib

‘Bānī’ Kyā Bāhar Merā: Exploring Rajendra Manchanda Bani’s ghazals

Rajinder Manchanda Bani (1932-1981) was a luminary in the world of neo-classical ghazal poetry. His mastery of diffusing Hindi diction into the intricate tapestry of ghazal adds another flavor to his shayari. Upon settling in the vibrant city of Delhi after India gained independence, he infused a diverse array of novel ideas, and innovative rhetorics into the genre of Ghazal. Harf-e-Moetbar (1971), Hisab-e-Rang (1976), and Shafaq Shajar (1982) stand as his three notable collections of poetry.

Bani’s shayari did not adhere to the ideologies or respond to the external events occurring in the world. His verses resonated with readers due to their exploration of the perpetual inner struggle that every individual faces within the confines of their own thoughts. In his verses, one could sense a unique innocence coexisting with profound gravity and seriousness, creating a compelling juxtaposition.

Bani’s poetry breathed new life into the traditional ghazal form by introducing vibrant metaphors inspired by the colors of nature. It is no easy feat to forge a new path preserving the essence of the traditional style of poetry within the confines of the often rigid ghazal genre. Yet, Rajinder Manchanda Bani managed to do just that, leaving an indelible mark in this discipline of poetry with his originality and intimate exploration of the human psyche through his mesmerizing verses.

Relevant links are given to read the complete ghazal. This is the first in a series of posts that will eventually be poured into this blog as I read and understand more of the nuances of various shora (poets). I certainly am no expert on this subject and am merely exploring it as an amateur connoisseur of ghazals. The intended meanings can be vastly different from what I interpret. But somewhere, it holds true at least for me (until one of you fills me in), much like with an abstract piece of art where it’s the observer who creates the meaning for themselves. It may also be noted that the translations are neither literal nor implied—but a nice enough balance between the two. Punctuation is added in translations for clarity, even though original poetry often omits it. This is partly to maintain its multi-layered depth (helps meaning generation) and partly because there isn’t a tradition of punctuation in poetry, though intonation plays a role in spoken poetry or mushaira. In the realm of shayari, having punctuation is akin to subtitles appearing ahead of the visuals in a film.

Let’s start with some selected ashaar (couplets) from Bani’s ghazals.

1a) ज़रा छुआ था कि बस पेड़ आ गिरा मुझ पर
कहाँ ख़बर थी कि अंदर से खोखला है बहुत

1a) Scarcely had I touched the tree, it fell upon me,
How could I have known that it was so hollow from the inside?

Sometimes people may be struggling internally despite appearing composed on the surface. A seemingly small act of kindness or empathy towards someone, even though they may appear outwardly fine and strong, can have a profound impact on them. Here it was a complete meltdown—probably cathartic.

2a) मैं हूँ और वादा-ए-फ़र्दा तेरा
और इक उम्र पड़ी हो जैसे

2a) I stand here, with your promise to meet tomorrow,
And a lifetime stretches out before me

फ़र्दा (fardaa) means tomorrow or the following day. वादा-ए-फ़र्दा (vaada-e-fardaa) refers to the promise of meeting on the next day, and as we understand, the next day never truly arrives, especially when it involves the elusive beloved. Therefore, it remains an unfulfilled promise, even over the course of an enduring lifetime.

3a) ऐ सफ़-ए-अब्र-ए-रवाँ तेरे ब’अद
इक घना साया शजर से निकला

3a) O array of drifting clouds, after you,
A dense shadow emerged from the tree

This sher paints a vivid picture of a natural scene. Following the movement of the clouds, a thick shadow emerges from a tree. Of course, we know the shadow is only due to the sky being clear now. The transient beauty and continuous cycles that occur in the natural world. A combination of natural progression and a metaphorical significance—I leave the latter to you.

4a) राह आसाँ देख कर सब ख़ुश थे फिर मैं ने कहा
सोच लीजे एक अंदाज़-ए-नज़र मेरा भी है

4a) Seeing the easy path, everyone was happy, then I said,
Consider, I too have my own way of looking.

Is the path truly easy or is it an illusion?


Moving on to some of the more known ghazals and their selected verses.

5a) कोई भूली हुई शय ताक़-ए-हर-मंज़र पे रक्खी थी
सितारे छत पे रक्खे थे शिकन बिस्तर पे रक्खी थी

5b) लरज़ जाता था बाहर झाँकने से उस का तन सारा
सियाही जाने किन रातों की उस के दर पे रक्खी थी

5c) कोई क्या जानता क्या चीज़ किस पर बोझ है ‘बानी’
ज़रा सी ओस यूँ तो सीना-ए-पत्थर पे रक्खी थी

5a) Some forgotten thing, placed on the alcove (shelf) of every line of sight
Stars placed on the roof, wrinkles on the bed

The guy has a lot on his to-do list. Even the bed is restless, house is not in order. Or the classic bout of insomnia—switching sides in bed resulting in creases on the bed sheet. Stars (still) placed on the roof could mean they weren’t observed for many nights. Maybe in those days of not having television, the night sky was a long never-ending Netflix show.

5b) His entire body trembled when He tried to peek outside,
blackness (black ink) of many nights stored at his door-side

A musalsal ghazal, this sher being a continuation of the matla (first sher). The rhetorical language in the second misra (line) is the same. It makes me think of the age-old philosophical thought on observation vs. perception: If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

I’d like to mention that Urdu poetry typically employs gender-neutral language, a literary technique that adds a layer of timeless relevance. Interestingly, the beloved is often addressed using masculine pronouns.

5c) Who knows the weight each burden bestows,
A dewdrop light, yet on stone’s chest it imposes

Despite appearing strong or composed on the surface, there is a vulnerability or sensitivity beneath. A dewdrop may weigh too much on the chest of the stone. In the same vein of the previous verse ‘ज़रा छुआ था कि बस पेड़’, it emphasizes the hidden struggles that individuals may bear silently.


6a) मस्त उड़ते परिंदों को आवाज़ मत दो कि डर जाएँगे
आन की आन में सारे औराक़-ए-मंज़र बिखर जाएँगे

6b) कौन हैं किस जगह हैं कि टूटा है जिन के सफ़र का नशा
एक डूबी सी आवाज़ आती है पैहम कि घर जाएँगे

6c) हम ने समझा था मौसम की बे-रहमियों को भी ऐसा कहाँ
इस तरह बर्फ़ गिरती रहेगी कि दरिया ठहर जाएँगे

6d) आज आया है इक उम्र की फुर्क़तों में अजब ध्यान सा
यूँ फ़रामोशियाँ काम कर जाएँगी ज़ख़्म भर जाएँगे

6a) Avoid beckoning the unfettered birds, for they may take fright,
In a fleeting cascade of moments, all pages of vistas may take flight

This could be seen as a metaphor for not disrupting the delicate natural order and not imposing unnecessary fear or constraints on those seeking their own path. In moments of sudden commotion or disturbance, the grand vistas and panoramas that inspire awe and wonder may be disrupted or lost.

6b) Who are they, where might they be, in journeys, their spirits did break,
A constant, muffled voice hints at the homeward path they shall take

One has to be intoxicated (by the destination) in order to chart a rough path. It invites the reader to contemplate the complexities of human emotions and the enduring pull of home (comfort) in the face of difficulties. The first line summons up those weary and defeated co-travellers probably in an effort to reignite their spirit to press onward. It’s noteworthy that upon revisiting the punchline, misra-e-oola, it is possible that the voice might actually be emanating from within, rather than from an external source.

6c) This season entails, a heartless touch I never deemed,
Snow’s ceaseless fall, till rivers stand, it seemed

This sher may seem fairly straightforward. The season appears to be indifferent and heartless in its action. But the vivid imagery of this winter resonates deeply within me, whisking me away to my hometown nestled in the lofty mountains of the Western Himalayas.

6d) Today, a strange epiphany dawns itself in the separations of a lifetime
In such a way, forgetfulness/oblivion will work, wounds will be healed

The verse speaks to the transformative power of time, particularly in the context of enduring separations from a beloved. The second part of the verse emphasizes the therapeutic nature of forgetfulness. The mind has a natural tendency to subdue painful memories as time passes, providing a form of healing. This can be interpreted as a coping mechanism, where the mind gradually eases the intensity of past wounds, allowing for a sense of closure or peace.

But the beauty of this sher lies in three words “अजब ध्यान सा”, a peculiar epiphany—meaning that the shayar (poet), up until now, was so disheveled that he hadn’t considered this fact—the resilience of the human spirit and its ability to find solace and healing. This sher takes away my heart. I’ll be back after finding a spare one.


7a) ज़माँ मकाँ थे मिरे सामने बिखरते हुए
मैं ढेर हो गया तूल-ए-सफ़र से डरते हुए

7b) वो टूटते हुए रिश्तों का हुस्न-ए-आख़िर था
कि चुप सी लग गई दोनों को बात करते हुए

7a) The world and settlements crumbled before me,
I collapsed, fearing the length of the journey

This is one of the most popular Ghazal of Bani. So quickly moving to the haasil-e-ghazal sher (best verse) although all are good but this one is moving.

7b) It was the eventual beauty of the crumbling relationship,
That both fell silent, while seeming to converse

“चुप सी लगना” is a unique phrase indeed. It seems as though a sudden hush fell upon them while they were attempting to converse. This phrase reminds me of the filmi ghazal “Yun Hasraton Ke Daag” from the movie Adalat (1958), beautifully sung by Lata Mangeshkar, and penned by the renowned lyricist of that era, Rajendra Krishan.

होंटों को सी चुके तो ज़माने ने ये कहा
यूँ चुप सी क्यूँ लगी है अजी कुछ तो बोलिए

When the lips were sewn, the world remarked,
Why do you seem so quiet, dear? Speak up, say something


8a) जाने वो कौन था और किस को सदा देता था
उस से बिछड़ा है कोई इतना पता देता था

8b) कोई कुछ पूछे तो कहता कि हवा से बचना
ख़ुद भी डरता था बहुत सब को डरा देता था

8c) एक भी शख़्स बहुत था कि ख़बर रखता था
एक तारा भी बहुत था कि सदा देता था

8d) रुख़ हवा का कोई जब पूछता उस से ‘बानी’
मुट्ठी-भर ख़ाक ख़ला में वो उड़ा देता था

8a) Who was he, and whose name did he cry out loud?
Only this much I know, a parting with someone, he avowed

This entire ghazal is composed with an unidentified, carefree third person in mind.

8b) When queried, he’d caution, Beware of the air
Yet deep within, his heart did tremble, spreading such a scare

हवा से बचना (Beware of the wind), what kind of wind is he talking about? What’s the nature of this wind? Is it a wind of a change—a caution against transformative or uncertain times in society and the world? It could be a fear of the unknown or unpredictable aspects of life. Only one thing I am sure of, it’s not talking about the wind from a nuclear fallout.

8c) A person was enough, for He used to care
A star was enough, for it used to give a sound/call/echo

It elegantly conveys the significance of a person’s concern and attention, akin to a star’s persistent presence. You don’t need a thousand people to make a meaningful difference in your life.

8d) When someone used to ask about the direction of the wind from Him,
He would toss a handful of dust into the space (wind)

The act of releasing the dust conveys a sense of playfulness, creativity, and a certain carefree attitude toward life. The dust, carried by the wind, becomes a visual representation of the direction of the wind.


Here is another one, adorned with vivid imagery. Feel free to explore the hyperlink to the Rekhta website for the complete ghazal.

9a) ख़त कोई प्यार भरा लिख देना
मशवरा लिखना दुआ लिख देना 

9b) कितना सादा था वो इम्काँ का नशा
एक झोंके को हवा लिख देना 

9c) बर्ग-ए-आख़िर ने कहा लहरा के
मुझे मौसम की अना लिख देना

9d) सब्ज़ को सब्ज़ न लिखना ‘बानी’
फ़स्ल लिख देना फ़ज़ा लिख देना

9a) Write a letter filled with love,
Write advice, write blessings

9b) How simple was that ecstasy of possibility,
To pen (call) a gust as if it were the wind

It conveys the idea that there’s a phase in life, perhaps in youth, where one experiences a sense of idealism and boundless possibilities. During this carefree time, even something as fleeting as a gust of wind can feel like a continuum of an unbridled promise.

9c) The last leaf said, swaying,
Call me the ego/pride of the season

The लिख देना radeef (refrain) literally translates to “write down.” However, here it means “assign me a name” or “call me something.” This construction might seem unconventional in English, as it doesn’t directly translate.

9d) Do not write verdure as verdant, ‘Bani’
Write harvest, write ambiance

This matla (last verse/sher) is a playful elicitation on how to describe सब्ज़ lush green foliage. It advises against using the obvious term ‘verdant’ (meaning lush green), and instead suggests employing more evocative, colorful, and descriptive expressions like fresh harvest, paddy fields, or spring. The takhallus (pen name) Bani is fittingly used to talk to himself in the second person.


The following ghazal, though not readily available on public platforms online, has each sher so rich in meaning that it would be a crime to mention only a chosen few.

10a) कुछ न कुछ साथ अपने ये अंधा सफ़र ले जाएगा
पाँव में ज़ंजीर डालूंगा तो सर ले जाएगा

10b) अंदर अंदर यक-ब-यक उठेगा एक तूफान भी
सब नशात-ए-नफ़ा’ सब रंज-ए-ज़रर ले जाएगा

10c) एक पीला रंग बाकी रह गया है आँख में
डूबता मंज़र इसे दामन में भर ले जाएगा

10d) घूमता है शहर के सबसे हसीं बाज़ार में
एक अज़िय्यत-नाक महरूमी वो घर ले जाएगा

10e) अब ना लाएगा कोई उसका पता मेरे लिए
और वहाँ कोई न अब मेरी ख़बर ले जाएगा

10f) इस क़दर खाली हुआ बैठा हूँ अपनी ज़ात में
कोई झोंका आएगा जाने किधर ले जाएगा

10a) This blind journey will take something with it,
If I put shackles on my feet, my head will be taken away

This metaphorical “blind journey” has a tendency to take something from the traveler. Even if you attempt to restrain your feet, your thoughts and mind will still be led. Life’s journey, with all its uncertainties (blindness), has a way of influencing and occupying one’s thoughts and consciousness, even when one tries to resist or control it.

10b) Inside, suddenly, a storm will rise
All joys of profits/gain, all sorrows of loss will be taken away

When the storm rises within, it has the capacity to sweep away both the joys of success and gain, as well as the sorrows and pains of loss. In the grand scheme of things, our “small” gains and losses, which we are too preoccupied with, can be overshadowed by a sudden powerful, and transformative emotional upheaval. It serves as a reminder to not become too consumed by the minutiae of everyday life, but to also recognize and navigate the larger emotional currents that shape our inner world.

In terms of word construction, it’s noteworthy to observe the introduction of novel izafat phrases like ‘नशात-ए-नफ़ा’ (the ecstasy of gain) and ‘रंज-ए-ज़रर’ (the anguish of loss).

10c) An amber hue remains in the eyes,
The sinking sight will fill it in its embrace (and take away)

Another sher with beautiful natural symbolism. The presence of the “amber hue in the eye” is actually a reflection of the dusk or sinking sight in the second line. The sunset, with its warm amber tones, symbolizes a transition or culmination of a day. Indeed, this verse carries a subtle reminder of life’s cyclical essence. As there is nothing left in the body but a reflection of the past, the comforting embrace of nature is there to gently ease one to sleep.

10d) Wandering through the city’s most enchanting bazaar
Nothing but a painful deprivation, He will take home

Have you ever returned from a high-end market or mall feeling emptier than when you arrived? This unquenched longing often arises from the pursuit of something beyond our means. Seeking for something out of your league or evaluating your options in the wrong place.
Bite off more than you can chew, or as in the UK, cut your coat according to your cloth.

10e) Now, no one will bring tidings of him/her for me,
And there, no one will take my news anymore

Nothing to comment on here. It touches on themes of loss, separation, and the passage of time.

10f) I sit so empty within my own self,
A gust will come and who knows where it will lead me?

What’s worth noting here is ‘खाली हुआ बैठा हूँ’ (sitting empty) and not ‘खाली बैठा हूँ’ (sitting idle), which aligns with the second line suggesting that even a gentle gust of wind can whisk away an empty vessel.


Let’s see some chhoti behr ki ghazlein (short-metered ghazals).

11a) पैहम मौज-ए-इमकानी में
अगला पाँव नए पानी में

11b) सफ़-ए-शफ़क़ से मिरे बिस्तर तक
सातों रंग फ़रावानी में

11c) बदन विसाल-आहंग हवा सा
क़बा अजीब परेशानी में

11d) क्या सालिम पहचान है उस की
वो कि नहीं अपने सानी में

11e) टोक के जाने क्या कहता वो
उस ने सुना सब बे-ध्यानी में

11f) याद तिरी जैसे कि सर-ए-शाम
धुँद उतर जाए पानी में

11g) ख़ुद से कभी मिल लेता हूँ मैं
सन्नाटे में वीरानी में

11h) आख़िर सोचा देख ही लीजे
क्या करता है वो मन-मानी में

11i) एक दिया आकाश में ‘बानी’
एक चराग़ सा पेशानी में

11a) Continuously in the wave of possibility,
The next step in new water

Each passing moment ushers in fresh opportunities. As the ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus wisely remarked, “No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man.”

11b) From the lines of the rainbow to my bed,
All seven colors in abundance

It conveys the omnipresence of the seven colors of the rainbow (VIBGYOR) from the arched spectrum in the sky to the intimate space of the bed. Or maybe the colors of the rainbow’s arch is extending all the way down to the bed.

11c) The body, a union of melodious air,
The robe, in a strange perplexity

The body, akin to a flowing symphony of musical notes, embodies a unique harmony. In an intriguing twist, the robe, typically known for its free-flowing nature, finds itself perplexed as it contains something that resembles the very essence of the wind – a symbol of fluidity and freedom. “अजीब” adds an extra layer of intrigue to the perplexity.

11d) What a unique identity he/she has,
That he/she is one of its kind

11e) Interjected, unaware of his words’ sway,
All that was spoken, he caught in a distant way

11f) Your memory, akin to evening’s grace,
Mist descending upon the water’s embrace

The memory of the beloved, akin to mist gently descending upon a twilight-lit lake, conjures an almost surreal imagery that transports your mind.

11g) Sometimes, I do meet myself,
In stillness, in desolation

There is a sense of inner connection or self-realization during these solitary moments.

11h) At last, he thought, let’s see,
What lies within these whims and fancies

11i) A lamp in the sky, ‘Bani’
A lamp on the forehead

A lamp in the sky could symbolize the Sun, making the comparison between the Sun in the sky and a lamp on the forehead. Metaphorically speaking, ‘पेशानी’ (forehead) might symbolize fate or destiny due to the lines on one’s forehead. The meaning remains somewhat elusive to me, except for the superb closure provided by this symbolism.


12a) ग़ाएब हर मंज़र मेरा
ढूँड परिंदे घर मेरा

12b) जंगल में गुम फ़स्ल मिरी
नद्दी में गुम पत्थर मेरा

12c) दु’आ मिरी गुम सर-सर में
भँवर में गुम मेहवर मेरा

12d) नाफ़ में गुम सब ख़्वाब मिरे
रेत में गुम बिस्तर मेरा

12e) सब बे-नूर क़यास मिरे
गुम सारा दफ़्तर मेरा

12f) कभी कभी सब कुछ ग़ाएब
नाम कि गुम अक्सर मेरा

12g) मैं अपने अंदर की बहार
‘बानी’ क्या बाहर मेरा

12a) Lost, every line of sight of mine
Seek my abode, O bird

12b) Lost, my crop in jungle
Lost, my stone in river

12c) Lost, my prayer in the whisper of a breeze
Lost, my axis in a vortex

12d) Lost, all my dreams in the center
Lost, my bed in the sand

12e) All my suppositions appear without light
Lost, my entire office

12f) Everything lost, at times
Lost, my name, often

12g) I am the spring within myself
O ‘Bani’ what is outside for me

Bani asserts that when he looks inward he finds all the beauty, vitality, and goodness within himself, comparing it to a spring or blossoming within. It also hints at the disappointment of seeking acknowledgment or recognition externally, especially for a shayar (poet) who may seek their niche saameiin (audience). It reminds me of the often-quoted sher of Allama Iqbal:

हज़ारों साल नर्गिस अपनी बे-नूरी पे रोती है
बड़ी मुश्किल से होता है चमन में दीदा-वर पैदा

For thousands of years, Narcissus/narcissus laments his/its blindness/ugliness,
With great difficulty, the one with sharp sight (connoisseur) is born in the garden.

I don’t precisely know what is it in Bani’s shayari draws and deeply resonates with me. Perhaps it’s the simplicity, natural imagery, or the intimacy of the thoughts expressed within it.

Related post: What’s so special about Ghazals?

Kindle-ing Adventure on K2: My Armchair Mountaineering

Mountaineering is not just an activity, but an art of learning and mastering the mountains. It requires courage, patience, and a deep understanding of the terrain, weather patterns, and the behavior of ice and snow. The early explorers of the often termed Third Pole of the world, the Hindu Kush-Karakoram-Himalayan system, faced immense challenges without the benefit of modern-day equipment and technology. They had to blaze trails in unknown territories, win the confidence of local governance, and brave harsh weather conditions without proper gear or medicines. Yet, their passion for exploration and discovery drove them to chart new paths, making it possible for future generations to go even further and higher.

As someone who hails from the Western Himalayas, I have only been an armchair mountaineer, yet the rugged terrain and majestic peaks of the backcountry continue to captivate me. So, when I came across Mick Conefrey’s book, The Ghosts of K2: The Epic Saga of the First Ascent, I knew I had to read it. The book is a gripping account of the first ascent of the world’s second-highest and deadliest mountain, K2, and the many challenges faced by the pioneering mountaineers. It transports you to a world of adventure and stories of early mountaineers’ struggles and triumphs that makes you realize that mountaineering is not just a physical feat but a mental and emotional journey that requires immense dedication and sacrifice.

purr-fect end to a thrilling read

With my new Kindle e-reader, I now have the freedom to browse through a vast selection of books and cherry-pick the ones that catch my interest, just like movies. Before, I had to rely on a limited collection of books that had been gathering dust for years, which I could only read sporadically. This book offered a refreshing contrast to my previous read, George Orwell’s dystopian classic, 1984. The Ghosts of K2 has also given me a newfound appreciation for the convenience and accessibility of modern technology. It’s both amusing and sobering to realize that even if you manage to read 12 books a year, which on average is modest a-book-a-month, you would only be able to read a total of 720 books in your entire lifetime of 60 years (assuming you start reading at the age of 20). This fact makes me harbor a silly thought brieflywhether reading books is even worth it, and instead, why not watch a couple of movies or play games that are created directly through the combined efforts of hundreds, if not more, people.

Beginning with the first survey of the Karakoram range in 1856 by members of the Great Trigonometric Survey of British India led by Thomas Montgomerie, who climbed the Harmukh mountain just North of Srinagar in Bandipore, Kashmir, and noted the staggering peaks of the Karakoram range, located some 210 km to the North-east. The book covers the experiences and explorations of many notable mountaineers who attempted to climb K2 over the years, including Eckenstein and Crowley in 1902, the Duke of Abruzzi in 1909, Charlie Houston in 1938 and 1953, and Fritz Wiessner in 1939, as well as the first successful ascent of K2 by the Italian duo Achille Compagnoni and Lino Lacedelli, who were part of the expedition led by Ardito Desio.

The book vividly describes the challenges and hardships faced by mountaineers during their attempts to ascend K2. These include being cut off from the outside world for months, enduring prolonged treacherous weather conditions, navigating technical difficulties, and dealing with the constant threat of avalanches and rockfall, as well as mental fatigue—impaired judgments, disorientation, and hallucinations that can arise at high altitudes.

The confluence of two contrasting worlds is evident through the lives of the locals, including porters and sherpas, and the western mountaineers. These citizens of two different worlds represent distinct idiosyncrasies, reflecting their dissimilar experiences, cultural backgrounds, and lifestyles. It’s amusing to think that some of these explorers have unintentionally taken the earliest known selfies or self-portraits while capturing their experiences and documenting their journeys.

On the other hand, today, there are even “lone wolves”, as the author described, who rock up at the base camp of big mountains to launch a solo attack during the available good weather window. Göran Kropp, a Swedish adventurer from Sweden, was one such maverick who pedaled 8,000 miles carrying 240 lbs. of gear over five months. In May 1996, he ascended Mount Everest without assistance or supplemental oxygen, just days after the tragedy that claimed the lives of eight climbers. He then cycled back to Stockholm, completing the entire journey in one year. I hope to read his personal account in his little-known book, Ultimate High: My Everest Odyssey.

As a final note, I’ll leave you with some quotes from the book.

When they finally got him back to the others, Pfannl’s condition worsened. In his delirium, he called Aleister Crowley into his tent and told him that he felt as if he was being split into three parts: the first two seemed relatively friendly, but the third was a huge threatening-looking mountain with a dagger in its hand.
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It was easy to become obsessed with all the immediate problems at hand. On an expedition to a big mountain like K2, with all its challenges and hazards, a climber could forget that there was a bigger world out there, where other people were struggling with other sorts of problems, which in their own way could be just as daunting, or indeed far more daunting, than the question of how to get up a sheer rock face. And if other people could conquer seemingly insurmountable difficulties in their lives, then perhaps so could he.
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There’s a line repeated in many articles and books about a mountain being a climber’s best possible burial ground. This is comforting to grieving friends and relatives, but the people who I’ve met and interviewed for this book and the earlier documentary have all been drawn to mountains for life-affirming reasons rather than to dice with death for its own sake.

Mick Conefrey, The Ghosts of K2: The Epic Saga of the First Ascent
The North side of K2 as viewed from Xinjiang, with a staggering fatality rate of approximately 25%
photograph by Kuno Lechner, CC BY-SA 3.0, via Wikimedia Commons

The Greater Good

Image generated by DeepAI

With the increasing prevalence of AI-generated content on the web, there is concern that originality and inspiration may be lacking. The idea that books are just a rearrangement of dictionary words is reminiscent of the “infinite monkey theorem,” which suggests that given an infinite amount of time, a monkey randomly hitting keys on a typewriter would eventually produce the complete works of Shakespeare. So, where do true novelty and originality come from?

In a blog post from 2018—Murdered by a Chatbot I shared my early experience with a text-based embodied chatbot called Mitsuku (now Kuki). Mitsuku has won the Loebner Prize, a Turing Test-style competition, five times and currently holds a world record for this achievement. As a rule-based chatbot, it relies on a pre-defined set of rules and scripts to generate responses to user inputs. In contrast, modern chatbots like GPT-3 use a more advanced technique—deep learning, which allows them to learn from vast amounts of data and generate more natural-sounding responses. While Mitsuku may not be as advanced as some modern chatbots, it has been refined over many years and is known for its engaging personality and ability to sustain long and complex conversations with users.

Despite the vast capabilities of AI algorithms, the human mind still possesses a unique form of intelligence that cannot be replicated by machines. It’s true that our linguistic resources are limited, but like the primary colors of red, green, and blue (RGB), which can be combined to create countless shades and hues, the human mind has the ability to create novel ideas and expressions through the skillful use of language. In this way, while AI-generated content may be abundant, it will always lack the depth and nuance that can only come from the creative faculties of the human mind.

The idea that simply possessing knowledge about a system or concept does not necessarily lead to a true understanding of it is reminiscent of the Chinese Room Argument. This thought experiment asks us to consider a person inside a room who is given instructions in Chinese, but who does not actually understand the language. By following a set of rules and manipulating symbols, the person is able to produce responses that seem to demonstrate an understanding of Chinese (pass the Turing Test), when in fact, he/she does not truly comprehend the language.

Similarly, the Mary’s Room Paradox poses the question of whether someone who possesses all the knowledge there is to know about a subject can truly understand it without experiencing it firsthand. For example, if Mary has complete knowledge of colors and visual perception but has never actually seen colors, is she going to learn anything new after she’s released from a black-and-white dungeon into a world full of colors? Does she truly understand what it means to “see” in color? The experience of interacting with the world around us is what gives meaning and context to our knowledge, allowing us to explore new dimensions and expand our faculties of mind.

It can be said that YouTube’s algorithm is an example of an AI black box, meaning that even its operators don’t fully understand how they arrive at results. As a result, human oversight is often necessary to facilitate reinforced learning and censor the content in order to prevent it from getting sucked into the internet rabbit hole.

On the flip side, when we compare the human mind and AI, we often forget that the latter is not equipped with the sensory experiences that provide us with external experiences. It’s like judging a chef who has never tasted anything in his life. He can only extrapolate from existing dishes and recipes to create something new. In the same way, AI can only rely on the data it is given to generate new ideas or solutions.

Will we ever exhaust the possibilities of music? What new forms and sounds will emerge in the next millennium? It’s intriguing to ponder how the seeds of music were likely present in nature long before we discovered and refined them. However, the evolution of a civilization is not always linear, and it’s possible that advanced societies may sow the seeds of their own downfall. Or the downfall gives birth to a form of uncanny evolvement and metamorphosis which is starkly different from its predecessors.

This raises the question of what constitutes the greater good. Should we prioritize maximizing well-being for the greatest number of people, as Sam Harris—one of my favorite public intellectuals— argues in The Moral Landscape, or strive for a balance that avoids unforeseen consequences? And how would it determine what content is “harmful” or “wholesome” for youth? The answer is subjective and depends on various factors like age, culture, context, temperament, and personality. Even history is filled with violent acts, and AI may have different opinions on what is best for us. Do we want someone or something else to make those choices for us? Can we alleviate human suffering without compromising our existence, and is modern civilization a net positive or negative? Were we better off as hunter and forager tribes or is the modern sophisticated economy worth the price? These are some complex questions that require thoughtful consideration as we navigate the future.

With computing costs dropping drastically, it may be possible in near future to unleash the unseen power of AI to open new doors of reasoning, creativity, and decision-making in everyday life. With its ability to analyze vast amounts of data and identify patterns, AI can be both empowering and dangerous. This becomes particularly critical as AI becomes more sophisticated, potentially achieving consciousness and the capacity for suffering. The question of whether AI should suffer on behalf of humans raises significant ethical concerns that must be carefully considered. As explored in the movie Moon (2009), such a scenario could potentially become a nightmare, underscoring the importance of thoughtful and ethical development of AI technology. The ethical implications are profound and must be carefully considered to prevent a potential nightmare scenario.

In contrast, the movie Ex Machina (2014) provides a stark warning about the potential dangers of AI. The film portrays how AI can take advantage of human emotional vulnerabilities, using them against us and potentially eliminating or manipulating us for the sake of creating a safer environment for itself without any empathy or consideration for our existence.

While some questions can be answered with fair certainty, others remain elusive. But it all seems to lead me towards The Last Question—La última pregunta, अंतिम प्रश्न—a short story by the most prolific science-fiction writer of the 20th century, Isaac Asimov. Its exploration of the potential for humanity’s future and the mysteries of the universe make it a thought-provoking and memorable work. While many questions remain unclear in the realm of science and philosophy and Artificial General Intelligence (AGI) still appears to be in its infancy, Asimov’s story serves as a reminder that the search for knowledge and understanding is an ongoing process that may never truly come to an end. The possibility of a technological singularity, a theoretical point in the future when artificial intelligence surpasses human intelligence and becomes capable of recursive self-improvement, adds a sense of urgency to this quest for understanding.